intention and gesture

the hall was half full. all were standing as the Tricolour fluttered on the screen and Jan Gan Man played. there was minor, almost negligible movement among people. almost all were well poised. i felt good. could even hear a few humming and me too let out my slow voice. a phone rang in front of me and this guy cut the call!

and the next time we people stopped at the entrance itself coz we could hear the anthem there.

i presume, in fact believe, this act of us was not out of any sort of compulsion. everyone knew what one should do and was doing it. and this was in contrast of all other activities we consciously or unconsciously take pleasure in doing when we are told not to. like parking at no parking or spitting at do not spit.

of course we all had a respect for the anthem. maybe we all remembered the teaching in civic, how to respect our national anthem and flag. "We should do this" was what we were taught. i think we never took this as an instruction or a rule that we would enjoy breaking. and if we ever thought so, maybe we were also thinking that atleast lets not break this rule.

now i dont expect we all would be doing the same if we heard the anthem when we were on street or in a meeting or in a restaurant. we would feel a bit sorry and will continue with our chore. the intention will be more important then than the gesture. like i always touch my parent's feet whenever i meet them after long but maybe i'll miss doing it if they stood there with open arms and we hug. no one would mind!

well, though i do feel bit awkward to see some players of our cricket team with their hands on chest in american style when they should be standing attention. either don't do it or do it properly? an immature thought! hehe.

intention above gesture my friend! intention above gesture! and we all have good intentions... atleast for one thing. and its great to see this :)

yourself

you break trust on yourself when someone whom yourself trusted breaks your trust on him

what's important than what?

i hushed her coz she giggled and made a comment when i was engrossed in the scene which was playing. then all of the concentration broke and mind moved over. i hushed one of my best friend just for a giggle and honestly, the hush was indeed salty and her mood went off.

friends are important, a few are more important than others and very few are still more. but does this importance varies according to a situation? of course! when i am alone, any friend is important and when i am with these 'just' friends, the best friend is most significant.

what about other material things? is a really good movie powerful enough to make my best friend less significant? why do i leave my best friends behind on their own and myself rush and jump in jungle or waters without bothering whether they will be coming after me or not or whether they accept me leaving them? the same friends without whom i cannot enjoy any moment.

maybe its the change in the surroundings which changed my mind and shuffled the rankings. that movie and that theme. maybe some new stuff about which i never thought when i was virtually prioritizing everything. "yaar, aaj tu uske saath auto se chala jaa na. mujhe akele bike bhagaane ka mann kar raha hai. please!" there was no bike before.

so there is a new realization. i'd prefer eating roadside paani-puri even in rains or climbing those trees or roll on the grass or hike to that fort on the top of this hill alone rather than staying down with my 'best' friends who cannot come along. i may even say "balls to you"!! see... importance changed!

so the list gets shuffled. relativities change. some changes are temporary and others are permanent.

but the exceptions. is there anything whose place wont change ever? i think most of them are at the bottom of the list. but as we move towards top, its all cloud. positions change frequently, as quickly as situations.

after much thinking, the pre-conclusion: parents are the exceptions. they are the most important. irrespective of situations.

conclusion (in general, not necessarily pertaining to above lines): since there are exceptions in everything, there are exceptions in exceptions as well.

p.s. true friends never mind

Why do people risk their lives for others

an important conversation.

in the episode #70, at the funeral of The Third Hokage

Naruto: Iruka sensei. Why do people risk their lives for others?

Iruka sensei: When one person dies... he disappers. Along with his past, current lifestyle and his future. Many people die in missions and wars. They die easily and in surprisingly simple ways. Hayate was one of them. Those who die have goals and dreams. But everyone has something as important as those. Parents, siblings, friends, lovers... people who are important to you. They trust and help each other. The bond between the people important to you ever since birth... and the string that binds them becomes thicker and stronger as time goes by. It's beyond reason. Those bound to you by that string will do that. Because its important.

Naruto: Yes... I think I understand, somewhat. But... it's painful when someone dies.

Kakashi sensei: The Third didn't die for nothing. He left something important in all of us. You'll find out what eventually.

Naruto: Yeah, I think I understand that too, somewhat.

Iruka Sensei: (thinking) It seems like the small leaves in the Hidden Village of Konoha have inherited that fire of will you spoke of, Third. The fire on the leaves will eventually burn greater and stronger. It will flash its light and protect this village.

special day

yesterday my friend said "sunday is father's day". tv channels were showing gifting ideas and bachchan dad and bachchan son. i asked him when's mother's day? he told me.

i remembered something and fetched the newspaper again. there were a few articles telling and talking about child labour. it was 'Anti Child Labour Day'. but i was of no use by then for this day. scanned through tv channels... they are as it is of no use.

prayed after a long time and slept.

conclusion

after a long time which was spent in observing and analyzing, deciding and refusing and with all the surviving remnants of thoughts involved in these activities, I hereby conclude and state:
"'Its all in the mind' is the third truth of life."

good, bad, choice, must do

woke up at 10 in the morning at boss' call... told him won't be coming to work as  doc instructed to rest for a day or two. saw those strange orange balls covered in thin small fluffy white petal like things on the tree outside our window. those were there a year ago as well but i could never see them closely. but now i have a gadget. i took my camera and zoomed in to see what it was. a beautiful orange ball, the surface like a honeycomb and from each groove was coming out a small white petal. felt good, obviously.

searched for some more thing before the sunlight gets hard for good shots and saw this. a crow had just hunted a grey pigeon and was devouring it. i zoomed in, curiously, then felt bad, obviously.

of course i didn't captured it, there was no reason. but then i thought, to get into good photography and while capturing this beautiful world, i'll have to encounter a lot many more of such sights. i cant be selective. i cant escape and have to get used to these. some of these shots i wont keep but some i'll have to preserve. coz those some will be the face of some fact of this world. maybe i wont have choice of what i'll see but i sure will decide of what to remember.

i should have taken the shot of the crow atleast, its movement, its caution. i could have chosen some angle so as to hide the dead pigeon behind the grass or anything while shooting.

have to be less emotional. ...? only for such situations.