a tear and two...

subconsciously many times things happen which we dont believe at the first moment but then later when we think of it, a totally opposite reaction comes up!
we are not used to crying... i mean guys or men... i dont know whether we feel ashamed or insulted or weak to shed a tear or two! but then these moments come... uncontrolled, and then we are compelled to cry. most of the times, when its over, we feel good!!
i remember last time i cried, remember times when i cried before that, remember many other guy weeping... and while talking to one of my friend, i told her... "never look at a crying man. that pain is unbearable. its like what we say an eruption of volcano." yes... thats what... the feelings of pain burst out with immense tragic emotions. just because we prefer to keep and bury them inside us and dont express it time and again!
"but yes" i said to her "you can very well look at a cry out of happiness!"

i wrote this and the first line recalling last night's incidence. i saw "Blood Diamond" alone yesterday night. very very touching movie. the people, the region, children, family, a precious stone... all blended too very well. all the time i kept praising the makers. the plight of the people in the area shown was really very painful, worse than anyone can think. a beautiful line amongst all this was "... when there will be peace in here, this place will become paradise!"

and then, in the end, came up on the screen written, "Sierra Leone is at peace now"... an unexpected feeling of relief came up to me and my tears rolled out! i then slept very peacefully!

i think i'll write more in my next posts on same subject.